So it’s week 2 in my Wreck the Journal journey (http://www.tnc-wreckthisjournal.blogspot.com). Yesterday morning I played in my book and finally faced my fear of following the instructions to burn page 4. Remember page 4 scared me last week. Even though I was born under the fire sign of Sagittarius and have no problems lighting candles and incense with a lighter, I am still afraid of lighting a match and watching paper burn.
First let me say that Jenn Lee was my inspiration. Jenn’s video blog (http://www.lifeunfoldsblog.com/2009/06/04/wreck-this-journal-week-1-playing-with-fire) last week really hit home. The image of her burning the page stayed with me all week. So here’s what went down in the wee hours of my chakra castle (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Chakra). Yes indeedie sweetie, I have all of the chakra colors represented on the various walls of my apartment. 7 bold colors. Red, royal blue, light blue, orange, yellow, pink, and purple. Sounds wild, right?
My morning began a wee bit early. 6 a.m. I must admit that my Wednesday afternoon acupuncture session really relaxed me and sent me to sleep early. Getting acupuncture on a monthly basis for the past four years has been such a healing experience for me and my body. After I did a series of yin yoga poses in bed, I walked into my sunny yellow kitchen and got the urge to light some Nam Champs incense and smudge myself with sage.
When I finished smudging myself, I decided to smudge my entire chakra castle. As I walked around, I chanted one of my favorite Tibetan Buddhist mantras: Om Mani Padme Hum (http://www.dharma-haven.org/tibetan/meaning-of-om-mani-padme-hung.htm). I lit another stick of incense and a yellow candle when I returned to the kitchen. I placed the yellow candle on my Buddha altar sitting in my red window. My eyes closed as I stood in the mountain yoga pose. The morning echo of birds lulled me into a place of stillness. After a few minutes, my inner voice (you know Ms. Intuition … She is my Ananda archetype … a spiritual woman – click here to see a photo: http://www.flickr.com/photos/anandaleeke/3161424573) instructed me to get my Wreck the Journal. So I walked back into my pink and purple bedroom and picked up the journal. My inner voice invited me to turn to page 4. I stared at the page and smiled. My hands gently grabbed the lighter and flicked a flame onto the page. I watched in sheer delight. A few seconds later I noticed the flame had left its own footprint of sorts. It looked like someone had taken a bite out of the page. That was really cool!
So later in the day I found myself thinking about my newfound courage born out of creative fire: How could I use it in my life? The answer came early this morning when I realized that I could use the creative fire to overcome my current fear of delaying the publication of my new book, That Which Awakens Me: A Creative Woman’s Poetic Memoir of Self-Discovery with a request to have the font of the text changed (the current manuscript that I received from the publisher this week doesn’t look right….it makes my words look messy). I didn’t want to face this fear because it means more WORK and summer is a time for play, right? Well, I am working to transform my concept of WORK. I decided to say that I am PLAYING with my creative fire to make sure others can play with it when it finally comes out in my new book at the end of the summer.
My other favorite exercises from Wreck the Journal were:
- page 26 – tearing the strips up
- page 36 – chewing on the paper
- page ? – crumbling the paper
- page ? – making a paper cup and drinking water
Confession time. I still haven’t made it around to most of my Wreck the Journal sistaloves’ blogs. The one thing that I am looking forward to is visiting everyone’s pages this weekend. Me and my creative fire are gonna have some good times with our online visits.
Thanks for stopping by!
Enjoy your weekend!
Peace and Creativity,